kerana terlewat...

newflash : pernah terlewat mengucapkan sesuatu yang penting kepada seseorang lately?well, baikilah perangai itu...

well, i used to have secret admire musim sekolah dulu...n dia adalah sorg yg sgt2 baik n caring...cuma myb time tu ak buta n tak sedar...after spm, ak lost contact dgn dia jg sama mcm dian...then lately ak asyik terkenang2 dia...n dok membayangkan bagaimanalah hidup ak skng kalo ak pilih dia dalam hidup ak dulu...mesti things are getting better...so slma 5 tahun ak simpan rasa menyesal, akhirnya ak nekad cari dia balik...byk cara ak buat utk cari dia...ak try col num hp n rumah dia...tp the number not in use anymore...ak tggl dkt rumah dia tp dia dah pindah kk...so smlm, pas ak ak cotact balik dgn dian.ak try mta number MILLER...BUT...jwpn yg ak dapat sgt mgejutkan...MILLER DAH KAHWIN...huhu...yep dia dah kawen...n ak sgt2 tkejut okai...a fren of mine ckp, bila org yg u penah suka dulu dah kawen...its all over...totally over...adoiyai...inilah krn terlewat n salah pilih...menyesal tak sudah...oh, miller...

" lelaki berpotensi sekarang is either married or GAY!!!!!"

-bullshit-

my long lost bff...

newsflash : rindu sgt kat dian...dah lama lost contact...but yesterday is magic!!!!

pernah ada best friend yg sgt baik smpi tak boleh d tukar ganti?well, i do have one b4...since abes spm kami lost contact n stat itulah ak owez d lihat obviously ALL ALONE time harungi stpm...lately time tgh study pon ak asyik terindu n tkenang kat dia...n belive wat? semalam time nek ferry kereta...ada sbuah unser kaler gold parking kat sblh kereta bapa ak..n believe it or not...itu bapa dian...my bff...so ak mcm org gila punya excited n jumpa bapa dian n minta number fon dian...after dat, da whole way dalam ferry kereta tu which actually ak n mama lebey suka duduk dlm kereta pasang aircond drpd bsesak2 dgn org ramai d deck penumpang...ak dok ber texting dgn dian...maka bukalah n ceritalah semua kisah2 lama zamam muda2 dulu...well, its nice thing u know...dapat cari long lost bff...rindu sgt...naseb kami masing2 dah berubah...btlla kata org, tak selalunya kt d atas...coz ada masanya kt d bwh..mc ak dan dian skng, we both kat bawah..i mean definitely BAWAH!!!!!...lke the sky is falling down on us...but i guess, we still have each other n will comfort each other...sama mcm dulu2...time nani dgn dian...owez k.i.t.a...

" well dian, i miss us...i do...n now im glad to have u back...keep in touch...xoxo..."

-i love u dian-

-time fly, people change...but friendship never end-

ferry kereta labuan-menumbok-labuan...

newsflash : pernah naik ferry kereta ke seberanag lately?

well, semalam ak naik lagi but bukan siang mcm ney la...malam...depart jam 9 due to "lateness" dr seberang...view malam lebey cantik n mcm naik cruise terapung d atas air malam2 d limpahi cahaya lampu...selama 1 hour and a half kami atas ferry ney b4 arrive d menumbok...n from menumbok, its about 160 km to kota kinabalu...n from kota kinabalu is about 70 km to kundasang...so smlm kami smpi kat kundasang jam 4 pg...haha...mmg ak tak mengantuk..sumpah...dgn kelajuan tahap gaban bapa ak bawa...ak pon tak dapat tido, well actually mmg ak tak dapat tido pon lately...dah insomnia pas musim exam...adoiyai...ha, gmbar yg korg tgk ney,tu bhgn bwh...tempat kereta parking...second floor, lounge penumpang...third floor, viewing deck...ha, kat third floor ney blh buat acara lamar melamar n sesi fotografi...mcm kngn ak dgn arwah iman dulu...dulu la, skng ntah mana dah cincin tu...dah dlm longkang kot...eyh, mana ha gemuk??o..gemuk...yuhu..

" if possible, try la naik ferry kereta bila korang datang labuan...i bet itu satu adventure yang berharga...."

selamat hari raya aidiladha...

newsflash : selamat hari raya...korban.

selamat hari raya...apa persiapan u guys raya ney...as for me here, ak ney ria2 bawa balik baju raya kat kundasang...igtkanlah nak pakai p beraya esok...tup tup...fmi, esok ada tamu n hari raya jg ta d celeb dgn meriahnya kat sini...but still adalah bbrapa upacara sembelih2 ney...den makan2 dgn family pastu abes...so, esk pas semua siap...ak dgn kazen ak na p mandi sungai yg airnya sejuk mcm ais kat kaki gunung kinabalu...ha, cite pasal raya ney...banyak kenangan sebenarnya zaman kanak2 ribena dulu...tp skng dah kurang siket...juz turut merasa kemeriahan raya haji ney wen my bff mom bt kenduri doa selamat b4 dorg p mgerjakan ibadah haji...but one thing yg ak tau, kt d haruskn melihat penyembelihan semasa ibadah korban itu sdg berlangsung...coz, setiap titis darah yang mengalir itu...akan menghapuskan dosa2 kecil kt pada masa lalu...so, apa tggu lagi...marilah kt mengimarahkan lagi majlis korban itu esok...

" berkorban apa saja...harta ataupun nyawa..."

photo credit : thanks to oppsrah...

kinabalu...

newsflash: gunung kinabalu di waktu pagi...cantik kan??

after almost one year ak study over the sea...ini barulah kali kedua ak balik ke kundasang selain malam raya aidilfitri yang lalu tuh...as usual, ak keluar lepak kat pekan dgn kazen perempuan ye...haha...semua kwn ak pempuan dah skng ney...n ak lepa kat cc da whole day...makan kat restoran used to b mine, teman nenek p hospital...byk lg plan dlm list...nak p mandi sungai, p national park, p tamu (largest sort of pasar malam siang), mandi poring spring ( kolam air panas)...bykla...kalo nak list nnt ta jadi plak kan...so nnt2 ak update lg...well, cuit ney tak best sgt cuma ak rasa lebey tenang n remaja...but cest la vie...hargailah apa yg kt ada b4 kt kehilangannya...one thing for sure, ak ke sini utk selesaikan masalah kurang bijak ak d zaman dulu2...if not now, when?...mcm gunung tu, dia cantik n nmpak kuat...tp sbnrnya, kdg kala gunung itu boleh nmpk menakutkan n mgerikan...begitu jg dgn hidup kt...nobody perfect...n so do i...

" i tend not to believe when people says how happy their life is..."

-bullshit-

- the end-

newsflash : final paper utk exam tahun ini sudah pon berakhir....dan itu bermakna perpisahan sudah terbentang di depan mata...

kalau nak cakap mmg banyak kenangan antara kami semua...dari suka...dari duka...semua ada...semua bercampur menjadi satu...sumtimes ada baiknya kt jangan terlalu rapat...jangan terlalu sayang...sbb bila tiba saat utk berpisah, kehilangan akan sgt2 d rasai...jd, jalani hidup dgn penuh buat2 tak tahu...jgn kisah...jgn peduli...jgn amik hati...-the end-

" whats done is done...what past is past..."

once upon a time...

newsflash : haha...takde koleksi gambar zaman muda, nasib baek jumpa satu after hacking blog sab...

spectrum event...finally...

newsflash : banyak rintangan yang designer ak lalui dlm na hasilkan logo spectrum events...akhirnya, slepas bbrapa jam berkolabrasi...finally, we came up with this...

first of all, thanks to Datuk Awang coz owez cuba bt yang terbaik utk spectrum event...byk benda yg terjadi otw datuk na came up with the idea corporating the spectrum event...dr logo draft kasar n byk logo corporate yg terhasil b4 dis, semua mcm ada yang tak kena...n dlm proses pembikinan nya juga lap top datuk dah bbrapa kali d serang virus n tpaksa d format semula...maka abesla hilang semua design b4 dis...n then td, sparuh malam ak dgn datuk duduk n berbincang format spectrum event yang sebenarnya...tentang apa yg cuba spectrum event sampaikan...so, ak ckp kat datuk yg spectrum tu mrupakan biasan warna dr sbuah prism yg sejuk n berbentuk berlian tanpa warna...cuma apabila terkena cahaya matahari, biasan warna yang terhasil amatlah mgagumkan...begitu juga dgn spectrum event, nampak senyap dan lemah lembut...tetapi apabila kami organize event...hasilnya superb!!!!!...ak beri datuk gambaran warna rainbow...and finally datuk terus faham konsep spectrum event yang lebey ceria berbanding logo b4 dis yg lebey nampak formal dan korporat...ak kagum dgn datuk yg dapat hasilkan logo dalam hanya masa beberapa jam...serius, ak rasa datuk sgt hebat...thanks to datuk kerana sudi mbantu spectrum event...jasa datuk, kami akan kenang n takkan d lupakan smpi bila2...datuk mmg punyai bakat yg besar...congrats atas superb design datuk...datin mmg suka!!!

" silence but deadly....."

im coming home, so are they...

newsflash: im coming home...after almost a year study oversea...

in a blink of an eye...its oredi november...hopefully all my sweat, hopes, dreams and tears worth it...there is so many things to do b4 im going back to my homie town...visiting my foster parents again, shopping, watching movies, girls day out and the most important things is finishing my last examination paper on this sunday...which is the " event risk management paper"...well, nothing much to say due to this come back issues juz a bit worried about some little thing in Labuan...honestly, im going to miss all my friends and my rivals too...not to mention later, but now i do miss them already...watching them start packing up their belongings juz make me heartache and speechless...that is why sometime, i dont really like to get close and much closer with them...because i know i will miss them n burst into tears after they leave...good bye to all my friends...classmates especially....with God will, we will see each other real soon...

" togetherness along the journey make us stronger..."

akhirnya jatuh juga...

newsflash : ewwWWWWW, akhirnya DIA jatuh jugak...hepi ada...tp malu lagi banyak...

b4 this kami sekelas agak bengang dgn sorg classmate kami yang ada satu habit dahsyat n myakitkan hati which "MENIRU" ...yeap, MENIRU dlm quiz n test...mcm2 cara kami buat n bagi hint dekat dia spy stop meniru...tp tak pernah2 sedar...pastu scene yg paling tak tahan sekali bila dia nak compare markah2 test n quizzes yg dia dapat dgn markah kitorang yg suci ney...EYH, HELLO...KALO SETAKAT MARKAH TINGGI SEBAB MENIRU...FUCK OFF LAH...n bila ak buka isu meniru dlm kelas, dia pon bt2 marah dgn sapa yg meniru tu...konon2 la...ak mcm na sepak je muka dia on da spot...sabar je la...igtkan dgn cara kitorg gilir2 duduk sblh dia utk prevent dia meniru during test or quizzes menjadi...TP TAK......malah dia sgt berani korek2 baju dia n kuarkan notes dr lipatan kain or suar dia utk meniru...mcm sial okai...last2 kami give up na suruh dia stop meniru...all the sudden td, after paper project management yg susah gila tuh...time kat rumah baru ak dapat tau, seseorang yang meniru itu d tangkap during final exam paper project itu td...huh??? ak pon tkejut coz ak sbg class rep pon tak tau...kira senyap2 la ney...patutlah, budak2 kelas kaizen n ombak yg brada dkt dgn seseorang dr kelas kami itu tgk ak semacam...rupa2 nya dorg tau benda yang ak tak tau...first ak nak ckp...tahniah coz d tangkap meniru dalam final exam tadi !!!!! and thanks coz malukan nama naik Spectrum E...thanks a lot okai " seseorang yang MENIRU itu..."

" BETTER HILANG 10-20 MARKAH SEBAB TAK TAHU JAWAB...DARI MENIRU AND BERSUSAH PAYAH JULINGKAN MATA DURING EXAM...."

love is everywhere...

newsflash : percaya tak jodoh ada di mana2? well, i dont before...but now i do...

its hard to believe...but now i have to believe when all the co-incidence happened to me...not juz yesterday, couple month ago, last semester and last year too...well, hard to say what already happened actually but all i can say is love is everywhere whether you want it or not...you noticed it or not...you like it or not...as for me, everything happened all the sudden, like the lightning stikes me a few times...when one of my skype friend text me and told me that he was otw to my campus wif his mom to visits her sister ( whom i may not know)...so i said okai...then he text me again, " i dah smpi...ada kat bawah ni...". and i was like...omg...i ran to my housemate room to take a closer view...all the sudden i saw norin with his brother n mom down there...i was like...omg...then i text him..." kete apa?"...and he replied " kete wira hitam...". i take a look once again via the window...n once again i saw norin's mom n big bro...then i text him again "adik awak pakai baju hijau ye?". he replied " yup, nape? kenal ke?"...OMG...all this time the guy who has keep on texting, calling me is my bff big bro...its a small world after all....

" jodoh ada di mana-mana...believe it or not..."

zoo happy land

* singa cuma seekor
* kuda belang lukisan...

* monyet penghibur kanak2

nama zoo happy land yg terletak d gaza tidaklah seindah dan segembira namanya...keadaannya sgt menyedihkan dan membuat ak sgt2 tersentuh hati selepas membaca artikel mngenai zoo itu di dalam kosmo online...hanya ada seekor singa, beberapa unta dan monyet dan kuda belang lukisan...namun itulah penghibur n beroperasi spenuhnya sbg taman hiburan bt penduduk d sana...oleh kerana selepas pngeboman d gaza,rakyat mjadi sgt miskin dan menderita. makanan dan bantuan terpaksa d catu dan kadangkala d seludup melalui terowong.kos pembinaan terowong itu juga mahal namun akhirnya d bom oleh israel...oleh kerana, pihak pgurusan zoo tidak mampu membeli kuda belang sbenar akibat terlalu mahal, mereka mgambil inisiatif utk membeli 2 ekor keldai dan d lukis sperti kuda belang...haiwan2 juga selalu sakit berikutan catuan bekalan makanan malah kos perubatan juga tidak mampu d tanggung oleh pihak zoo...faktor kemiskinan jg mjadikan yuran masuk ke zoo itu cumalah rm1...kanak2 sgt gembira dgn kehadiran haiwan2 itu terutama kuda belang lukisan itu...mereka tau ianya adalah seekor keldai dan bukannya kuda belang...namun mereka bersyukur dgn apa yang mereka miliki...pengurus zoo happy berjanji akan cuba mberi yang terbaik utk pengunjung zoo happy land..." kuda belang itu sgt cantik", kata kanak2 yang d temui...artikel ini mbuatkan ak tersentuh hati dan bersyukur dgn apa yang ak miliki...

" bersyukurlah dengan apa yang di miliki...berdoalah untuk mereka yang kurang bernasib baik..."

stillness...

newsflash : mata makin sembap...eye bag pun dah muncul...masa sangat singkat...sampai takde masa nak berfikir pasal dia.

okai...satu lagi exam dah lepas...tp persediaan utk exam itu sgt maha hebat..(well, tak jugaklah)...cuma ak sgt bz smpi takde masa na pk pasal benda lain tmasuklah pasal diri ak n seseorang itu...(its not like dia pon bfikir pasal ak jugak rite?)...smpilah time tgh bsiap utk ke exam hall tu, norin cakap kat ak.." yeye, nani dah ada eye bag...mata nampak bengkak...nani dah nak buruk..". uiks, br ak perasan yg rupa ak dah btukar jd almost mayat hidup..pucat n sembap due to ta tido malam n study tahap gaban...td b4 ke exam hall, barulah ak nampak dia...n b4 masuk exam hall ak nampak dia lagi...n time dalam exam hall ak nampak dia lagi coz dia duduk selang satu baris dr ak...time jwb exam ak mngelamun tgk dia via reflection through the glass door in front of me...at the same time, apa yg ak blaja n hafal smlm almost tlupa sbb tringat dia...n kngn2 dgn dia...during exam, ak avoid pandang tmpt dia...akhirnya ak bjaya jgak blakon heartless n ego...ak akui kami bdua sgt professional mgawal emosi. its like kami tak pernah kenal atau bcakap b4 dis...muka mmg selamba mcm takde perasaan...but i guess, kwn2 rapat and classmate kami tau, apa yg kami rasa...haha...shilly shally...hey, pernah keluar bsama doesnt mean that we fall in love okai guys???...sekarang apa yang lebey penting, prepare utk next paper n dapatkan rehat yang cukup utk wajah yg berseri n cantik...help...stress ney!!!

" rindu...stress...study...prepare for next war..."

raisins all over me...

newsflash : i do believe in magical food..like raisins, beside the goodness there is some mysteries behind the dried grapes cases...

should be or not to be...should eat or not to eat...well in my case, i love to eat raisins..love raisins a lot...thats why i said, raisins is a magical food..i tend to remember the facts that i have read in my books b4 examination occurs...all u have to do b4 eating the raisins is, selawat several times and eat raisins in anomalous counting like 7 or 9...then eat it with hope and dreams...then you focus on the subject you want to study...after finish with your readings, have a very good night sleep...and ready for your examination next day...insyaallah, what you have read will remain in your computerized brain..try it...

" who knows what miracle, you can achieve...when you believes...you will when you believes..."

its a sign...

newsflash : selepas accident itu, nani mula memahami erti kehidupan...its a sign.

otw balik dari rumah kakak mimi, ada sbtg pokok terbang melayang2 scr tiba2 ke arah kereta sab...scr tiba2 juga sab brek...all de sudden, ada sbuah kereta mlayang2 dr sbrg jalan sblh sana mghala ke arah kami...kami semua sgt terkejut n termenung lama dalam kereta...kereta itu kemik teruk d bhgn dpn...myk dan air meleleh keluar...kami mjangkakan driver kereta itu mati atau tsepit...all de sudden, tgk driver itu keluar dgn mgusap2 kpla dia...dlm keadaan selamat n tidak berdarah sedikit pon...cuma mayb, sedikit pening...apa yg penting, dia seorang prempuan...memandangkan dia seorang perempuan, kami sepakat utk keluar dgn niat utk menolong...ttp, sorg lelaki dtg dan mengheret pokok kelapa yg jatuh d dpn kereta sad dan myuruh kami pergi...dlm keadaan tpinga2, kami pon pergi...its miracle right? perempuan itu keluar dr kereta yg kemik dlm keadaan sihat dan tidak berdarah...tp bg ak,its a sign coz kami pon almost terbunuh d hempap pokok itu andaikata sab drive dgn laju...but thank god...pokok itu btl2 jatuh about one meter dr number plat...its a sign yg ak d beri peluang utk hidup lagi n belum masanya ak pergi...so, ak sgt bersyukur n nikmati hidup ak dgn baik skng ini...tiada lagi niat buruk n etc...mayb, u guys should too...

" enjoying my life to the fullest with no regrets..."

aura baju merah...

newsflash : percaya dengan ritual?well, nani percaya...

macam2 ritual yg kt buat utk diri sendiri...believe it or not semua org pasti akan ada taboos tsendiri...well, some say baju merah is not good and symbols of evils...some say, tangan kanan gatal nak dapat duit...some say, hati berdebar2 tiba2, ada pkara buruk na jadi...some say, duduk kat tangga tak elok coz nnt jadi anak dara tua...well, i do believe in some...like good luck in the red blood color of my baju kurung during final exam especially...it makes me more comfy and confident to answer my examination paper...make my brave but subtle heart relax so i can focusing on my exam...hum...hope this ritual will give me the same luck as last sem...for i has been slacking way too much this semester...may god bless me and my examination...make me stay here in this university until i finally grad with flying colors...ameen...

" have faith, jangan pernah mengalah...."